Tag Archives: Australia

01.30.15
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You can’t control how people feel about you

It’s come to my notice recently, an unmistakable truth of gigantic proportions, which is that ‘you can’t control how people feel about you’.

I have realised that in being polite, diplomatic, generous in listening and understanding and responding passionately I can attempt to influence how people feel about me but cannot guarantee that how they feel about me is how I want them to feel about me.

I have realised that several moments of such ‘nice’ behAvior can be wiped out in an instant when opinion overcame niceties.

People often demand behavior that is in opposite to your behavior at that particular moment and then criticise such behavior if it was altered.

I am tired of life. I am tired of having to explain and justify my actions when no-one else seems to do so. I am tired of having to constantly check if what I say and do is appropriate or expected or well received. I am tired of wishes while wishing for certainties. I am tired of hoping and then being disappointed. I am tired of surviving and not living.

I will go on and erect my defences against any and all such hurts and attacks that come my way.

05.13.14
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Faith

I think I am finally beginning to understand faith in the Lord Jesus Christ!! 

The father with a sick child has faith when he believes that Jesus will heal his child.
The lady who can’t get pregnant in a lifetime according to scientific evidence and medical opinion believes that Jesus will give her children and not only goes on to have one but three children.

I believe that the Lord Jesus Christ if it in his perfect plan for me will grant the desires of my heart with a first class. This is an excercise in faith.

Praise God that we worship a true and living God who never changes.

04.26.14
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Life wonderings

Fear is a part of growing up ; I drove late at night alone for the first time and was so fearful but prayed and did it anyways. In hindsight I liked it and will do it again listening to radio singing loudly however I also felt anxiety.

Also was wondering when people do something wrong whether they always apologize with words or with actions.  I think people apologize with actions rather than words but then it is rather difficult to determine if they are actually apologising for what they did and trying to restore a relationship or whether they continue to be arrogant and don’t apologize but ignore what happened and superficially continue.

Plus I can’t stop thinking about, lets call him, Mr USA,
I see him everywhere
When I see photos I see him in them
I keep thinking about him
When will it end?!?!?
Just remember he does not love him I have to get over him
I won’t get a chance with him
Forget him